It's the longest amount of time I've been away from acting and rehearsals in the 12 years I've been performing. Needless to say I was a little nervous. I packed up my rehearsal bag (you know, script, notebook, pencils, string cheese, apple, water, ballet slippers, ipod, sweatshirt etc.) and started the adventure of
It was a great night. I was the kind of exhausted at the end of it that you get when you truly focus all of your energy on something really fulfilling. Getting up on stage with a script in my hand and so many opportunities and choices to be made was just thrilling. I had forgotten that part. The excitement. The newness.
But the familiarity and comfortableness were palpable too. It was like putting on my favorite sweater. I slipped on my actor-self and was instantly at ease, warm, at home. It was so natural. I was expecting a certain level of rustiness, or uncertainty in myself, but there was none. I just did. It was wonderful.
I've had many different kinds of experiences in the time I've been away from acting. I've directed, house managed, stage managed, and joined the Co-Lab. All have been worthwhile and I have learned something new about theatre, myself, and the rehearsal process doing them all. But I realized last night, that they are things that just work to continue to shape me as a performer. And right now I'm feeling pretty good about who that performer is.